It's not just a number. I feel old. I feel old in all these ways:
When my friends grow weaker and frailer.
When they die. Or seem like they may die. Soon.
When I start to feel weaker and frailer. Just a little right now. Like when I can't exercise six days in a row anymore. I need to take rest days in between.
When people tell me I "need to start looking now" or I "won't be able to look later." You know what I mean.
When people I meet seem so horribly, horribly young and inexperienced, and I don't want to have too much to do with them because they may hurt my feelings even without meaning too. You know, because they're too young to know any better.
I'm sure this list will grow longer. Soon.
When my friends grow weaker and frailer.
When they die. Or seem like they may die. Soon.
When I start to feel weaker and frailer. Just a little right now. Like when I can't exercise six days in a row anymore. I need to take rest days in between.
When people tell me I "need to start looking now" or I "won't be able to look later." You know what I mean.
When people I meet seem so horribly, horribly young and inexperienced, and I don't want to have too much to do with them because they may hurt my feelings even without meaning too. You know, because they're too young to know any better.
I'm sure this list will grow longer. Soon.
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