Happy place

I need to find my happy place.


The Bates Quad

The Sacre Coeur

Dammit

Why do I get stuck with extra administrative duties because senior, tenured profs think that it's not their job? Well, it's not mine either, so why am I doing it??

Seriously.

you cannot run.....

As someone who hates dealing with other people's feelings (INTJ in the house), I'm learning now that politics at work is all about dealing with other people's feelings, and one's own. All the fights and conflict and unpleasantness are the result of hurt feelings, and of not being able to deal with hurt feelings. The need for power is the result of feeling smaller than one wishes to feel.

I see this in myself too, but hopefully, God will be able to work through all these emotions with me. It's been really hard at work though. And I don't really want to have to deal with other people's crap. I have enough crap of my own to work through. Plus, they're all older than me! They should have their shit together, come on.

(Fat chance.)

sunny spring day

My office is on the ninth floor

The view from my office

And a partial view of the old campus from our building 

Easter break

Took a break over our long-weekend, and went to Zhongshan with badminton buddies for food and badminton. Now, my body thinks that it can relax and refuses to work. However, we have three more weeks of classes to go, and I need to finish my writing!!! Sigh.

Just chatted with a friend who teaches in Chicago. She's feeling more down than I am right now, but I'm sure she'll be fine once she gets tenure. In the mean time, it's physical therapy, massages, and counseling to keep up with the effects of stress.

What do I want? Is this the life I want? I don't know what I want.....

Learning to let people be who they are at this point in their lives. That's a kind of grace. And hey, I'd like people to let me be whom I am too. I'm going to grow as fast as I grow......