health

i'm a bit of a hypochondriac, but i also often take good health for granted. i take it for granted that i will be able (and willing!) to go to the gym regularly, push myself on the badminton court, and eat anything i want whenever i want to without worrying about aches, pains, or discomfort.

the stomach bug this past weekend reminded me just how much i tolerate any kind of discomfort or inconvenience. i don't have a chronic/recurring disease (although i am completely anal about taking care of my back) and i generally live a pain-free life . . . some people aren't quite so blessed.

whenever something does go wrong, i go nuts trying to control it. but really, should i expect to have so much control over my life or body? i need to have responsible habits, yes, but those habits don't guarantee a pain/discomfort-free life and i need to accept that.

(basically, i'm writing this post because i don't know how to write the next paragraph in chap 2 of the dissertation. but also because i really do have to learn to accept the fact that i cannot control everything that goes on in my life.)