The night before last, I think I only fell asleep at 3am, dunno why. As a result, was very tired yesterday and could hardly write.
Last night was worse. I was up until 5am, and got up at 8am. I do know why I couldn't sleep but I'm not in the right frame of mind to say why (and esp not on a blog!). Suffice it to say that I called friend Naomiobi in the middle of the night and blubbered at her for a bit before I could even begin to explain the story. I felt better after that, but I still couldn't completely let go.
Woke up this morning and felt the same way, but I am taking steps to try and get over this. It's not easy, and I wish I didn't have this on my mind when I'm trying to finish this draft that's due on Monday.
Hang in there. Sounds like you're in the throes (sp.) of some sort of existential crisis...
ReplyDeleteKeep your chin up, Z! Things will get better : )
I think I might take your advice at some point and tell certain folks to take a hike. :)
ReplyDeleteThat's all I'm going to say about it.
p.s - thanks, Cat.
drat. we should have prayer last night.
ReplyDeleteYou will be ok ... somehow you always pull through by the grace of God and sheer doggedness :-)
ReplyDeletenaomiobi: hahaha, yeah, we forgot!!
ReplyDeleteuncle paul: well, if there's one thing about me that most people agree on, it's my stubbornness!!! :D
I'm actually feeling a bit better now, and no, despite my threat, I'm not going to tell anyone to take a hike. I had a good talk with my counselor, and of course, that's helpful but it's not like waving a magic wand. It's just all going to take time (and grace).
I think the poor guy was a bit worried for awhile because I don't think I've ever been this upset!! hahahaha . . .
Amen, sister! I hope you do!! Although, after reading the rest of your comments, I don't think you will ; )
ReplyDeleteYou just DO YOU and you'll be ok.